Thursday, 25 April 2013

Speaking Her Mind------Poetry (the possible words of a totally disabled person)





Speaking Her Mind

I think they’re coming soon
With that lift thing called a sling
There’ll be some idle chitchat ‘fore
That nurse decides to sing.

‘Now how are you today my dear?
You’re looking kind of swish.’
I feel just like a sack of spit
Stop talking, fill that dish.

‘Ready? Yes! I think we are!
The water’s nice and warm,
Down down, down down, we go…
No no – that’s hot – that’s burning hot
my cold skin’s now received a shock!

For corpuscles are creeping slow, 
I gaze on skin that’s lost its glow.    
Flacidly here abed I lie,
with heart still beating – open aye.

I guess I’m feeling dying breath
It’s cold wind whispering at my throat,
My voice has gone –what did I wrong
That I must sing this silent song?

I’m trapped inside this body
with an active brain restrained;
The words I’d like to shout out loud
refuse to be proclaimed.

No limbs that work, no sign of life,
choice is denied along with strife.
Can’t undo what is in the past,
it’s too late now, the die is cast


This poetry was inspired by the many disabled people in the shopping centre. I often wonder what totally disabled people, who can't even speak, are thinking. I'm thankful I still have my voice.

Sunday, 21 April 2013

The Night of the Storm – – – a tragic true story


The Night of the Storm

In the crowd one girl stood out. She wore a bright yellow sun dress, plain 60's style, round neck and sleeveless – just a bright splash of yellow. I was surprised to see such a bright colour in a funeral crowd in a churchyard. I felt edgy, unsure of myself, sad, shocked and uncertain. Doris clung to my arm on one side and Wendy’s arm on the other side. I was surprised that she stuck so closely to us – wouldn’t she want to be with her family members?

But they were in disarray. Dan was in the pub, too bereft from alcohol and grief to cope with his family in their devastation. Doris had never got on with her older sister and apparently the rift was too great to be overcome, even at a time like this. The mother was in a hotel room in the town under deep sedation cared for by the local Dr – and Barney – where was Barney? He’d just lost his brothers. Why wasn’t Doris clinging to Barney?

Three days before, we’d all been on duty. I was the youngest of ten nurses, the newest recruit of the little band of staff that manned the tiny district Hospital. There were also three of four registered nurses and the matron, a very strict supervisor who ran a tight ship. Doris was one of my senior nurses and a good friend. Their farm was not as far out of the town as ours. Doris, Wendy and I became close friends.

***

On that morning the alarm had gone off at 5:30 AM and Wendy and I had met in the big kitchen with the others to start the day shift. The news was just spreading amongst the staff – there’d been a terrible accident the night before. Three of Doris’s brothers were dead.

Over the following days, the story details gradually fitted into place like the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle. Hushed whispers passed the news around, a word here and a word there. No one laughed out loud, no one shouted. A heavy blanket of grief subdued all activity. The whole town had slowed, as friends contacted friends, neighbours checked on neighbours, making arrangements, discussing times, discussing transport et cetera.

My parents arrived at the nurses’ home with my brother, and we all clung to each other, wordless and disbelieving. My older brother played football with – had played football with Kelvin, the eldest of the brothers.

It happened in the evening when the family was just sitting down to dinner, the family minus Dan who was on his usual stool in the pub. An electrical storm was raging. Lightning flashed, thunder rumbled and at the Elliott's farm, wind was rattling the shed roofing iron.

Kelvin, who loved the farm, decided to go check on the new tractor in the shed. When he didn’t return, his high-school-age younger brother, Dudley, was sent to ‘help Kelvin with the tractor.’ They were taking so long to return that their mother sent her youngest son, Nathan, to hurry them along before dinner got cold. Nathan too, did not return.

Some months before, the mother had had an argument with an electricity authority about erecting a huge pole too close to her front gate. The pole went ahead.

Alone in the house with the meals growing colder, the anxious mother, accompanied by the family dog, braved the storm to investigate.

Approaching the gate, she spied through the rain, the three boys lying on the ground. Her first instinct was to run to their aid, but the dog got in ahead of her and ran to sniff the bodies, only to be electrocuted and killed in front of her. She drew back in horror and ran to the house to call the ambulance.

***

In the first pew at the front of the church, Doris stood strong and straight, clutching hard to Wendy and me.  With her head held high, and in a clear voice, she sang Abide with Me.

My eyes strayed to the three coffins. I could not sing.

THE END


Author's Note: The boys were electrocuted because sheets of iron were blown off the shed roof in the storm, severing the electrical wires which came down and electrified the wet grass.

Friday, 19 April 2013

Poseidon's Pictures.

These are the pictures I promised yesterday of the oven.The garden has grown up around it and with all the rain we've had during the summer, a little loss is gathering.



The fire is burning and food is cooking in the outdoor oven.


our daughter in charge of lighting the fire and maintaining it.


Poseidon – temporarily secondment to supervising the oven. 


The oven today – gathering a little moss.

Wednesday, 17 April 2013

Poseidon's Oven ---Part 4



This is the last part of the story of Poseidon’s oven. It is not enough to teach someone to build an outside oven; I just wanted to give an overview of a large project very dear to Pete’s heart. It would have been easier if I could have included many more photos, as the project was interesting. But I hope in some measure my readers have gained some unusual knowledge. The oven is a favourite part of our backyard now, and we’ve had some delicious meals, including a Christmas ham with all the trimmings, and several cakes.
The science of managing an outdoor oven includes learning about the fires. Where to place them inside the oven – at the sides – at the back – at the front?? Since our daughter was a dedicated Girl Guiide in her childhod, she considers herself an expert fire builder, and often arrives two to three hours early before one of our family parties especially for the purpose of lighting the fire. In the end she and Pete found that positioning the fire at the back was the best position for cooking. And a couple of hours needs to be set aside to get the heat of the oven up before the cooking starts.
It is a fascinating, ongoing journey, and we hope to have many more cooking adventures in the future.


Poseidon’s Oven Part 4

After the inside dome of the oven was finished, Pete and I took a trip to the brickyard where we were confronted by a confusing array of interesting colours and patterns. Who knew bricks could be so exciting!?
Having made our choice, Pete placed the order. We had two days before the bricks were delivered so we returned home for Pete to finish the cladding over the top of the dome. To allow the firebricks in the dome to expand and contract as needed by the fluctuating heat, he placed tinfoil sheeting over the dome. Steel reinforcing bars added strength when he filled the space over the top with a mixture of concrete and vermiculite. I could see the oven was going to be well insulated.

Pete and I had chosen pale cream bricks to build the outside walls, with a few red ones for contrasting stripes, but just at this time a good friend, needing somewhere to dispose of a small number of leftover bricks, insisted we take them for our project. They were the colour of terracotta, and we decided they would make an appropriate base. You can probably see the bottom three rows of donated bricks in the picture.

Despite the amount of work involved in building the oven, Pete found time to take many pictures of his progress. Little treasures, including two tiny metal cars, a miniature plastic dog and a glass marble, were found on the site too, and he found it extremely difficult to part with them! 

"These belonged to some little child – how can we throw them away?" he said.
The bricks were to form an outside skin over the whole oven. Pete is a perfectionist, and he spent endless time measuring and marking the track on the slab for the first row of bricks. If they were wrong – all the bricks would be wrong.

Each day his last job was to lay the corner bricks for the next day. Allowing them overnight to dry, meant that he could attach a string line to them the next morning and then lay the rest of the line. He continued in this way as the oven skin took shape. Each day he found the time to lay about two rows of bricks which meant that the skin took just a few weeks.

In all, before he was finished he had built six brick arches, using five different templates. On the slab base at the back of the oven there is an arch over a fire-wood storage area, and at the front there is a lower arch as well as the two entrance archways in front of the dome.

At first when the cement dome was built, I thought it looked like a small mosque, but as the brickwork grew and took shape, I thought it resembled a marvellous cathedral!

I decided that we had to have a mask to decorate our oven, and Pete agreed. My research into Greek Gods rewarded me with the story of Hestia, a virgin goddess of the hearth, and of architecture, and the right ordering of domesticity, the family and the State. She sounded quite appropriate to watch over our oven. Now, where to get a mask of a Greek Goddess??

Hanging on our side fence were two masks I moulded years before during a hand building pottery class. There was the handsome, bearded Poseidon, keeping company with the poor unfortunate, (I made her mouth too big,) Nefertiti.

Not only a mask was considered, but I decided Pete should insert a rooster weather vane on top of the chimney.

“How am I to do that??”

“Aah – you’ll think of something.”

Unfortunately, by the time the oven was finished, we still hadn’t found our Hestia. The rooster weatherv-vanes we found on the Internet didn’t look as if they would last five minutes out in the weather, let alone five years, and the ones that did were very expensive. We haven’t abandoned the idea – it just hasn’t come to fruition yet.

As time went on, Poseidon, the only decent mask on the fence, was looking more and more like a possible candidate for the job.

The oven had been a big project. Pete and I were both mentally exhausted, and Pete was physically exhausted as well. 

When the outside walls were completed, I heard Pete cutting timber, and found he was building a structure to hold up the roof. He’d bought flat glazed roof tiles, and sections of ridge capping from the Brickyard. When it was finished, the roof was a lovely burnished brown.

Now the time came for the last little job – the chimney. Rado’s chimney had a European influence, with triangular pieces of cut brick around the top, and half circles of terracotta drain pipe across the top. Pete was doubtful about cutting so many pieces of brick, and I suggested he use his own design. The chimney he built looked great.

Our Greek Goddess, Hestia, still hadn’t materialised, and Poseidon was looking more and more attractive. We took him down and cleaned the cobwebs from his beard.

I'm sure he's started smiling since his elevation to supervisor of the oven.

THE END

(tomorrow I'll post a photo of the oven – just haven't got time today)

Sunday, 14 April 2013

Poseidon's Oven – – Part three. Non-fiction.




In part one we selected the site and laid down the slab and in part two the base section of the oven was built.

Poseidon’s  Oven Part 3

With the boxing in place for the floor of the oven, Pete commenced to lay steel reinforcing and concrete to create a strong slab. The reinforcing was inserted in layers as the thickness of the slab grew to 6 inches. On completion, all that could be seen was a smooth slab and we waited another five days for the concrete to dry completely, before continuing with the firebox.

Because fires were going to be built on this floor in the future, Pete had to use fire bricks, manufactured to withstand higher temperatures. More importantly, they retain heat. Consequently, the second step was to lay a firm layer of fire bricks atop the slab. Approximately 96 of these were laid side-by-side to form a solid floor. Then more fire bricks were stacked two bricks high at the sides and the full height of the firebox at the back. The side and back fire bricks were mortared into position, before boxing was constructed around the outside, leaving a 4 inch space to be filled with concrete. These thick concrete sides were necessary to support the oven dome.

To prevent the sides from collapsing in on themselves when the thick concrete was built up to support the dome, wooden reinforcing boards were inserted from side to side beforehand. When the sides were finally completed, another week was then set aside for the new concrete to cure.

To build the dome it was necessary for Pete to make a curved wooden template. Starting at the back, in front of the back wall, he laid one row of fire bricks at a time over the template. As the mortar in each row dried, he removed the template and moved it one row forward. Gradually, the shape of the dome became obvious, and at last the whole inside lining of the firebox was completed.



The next step required lots of concrete to complete the thick dome roof. I was amazed at the thickness of the emerging oven.

Unfortunately, we were plagued by showery weather at this time. After the concrete part of the dome was completed, it took several weeks before we were granted enough consecutive days of dry weather to begin lighting small drying fires inside. Once alight these fires were extinguished after 3 to 5 minutes. They were simply to help the concrete dry out and to help cure the concrete in preparation for bigger fires later. Due to all the wet weather the fires caused a crack in the top of the dome where steam issued out after lighting the first fire.

I was devastated. “Not a crack!” I exclaimed.

But Pete wasn’t too disheartened. “I think it’ll be fine,” he said, and it was.

The last job he had for the dome was to build the front archway. That required another template, somewhat smaller, and when completed, it formed the inside entranceway or doorway to the oven.

My education was expanding. I hadn’t realised that ‘wood-fired’ meant exactly that, and that the fire was in the firebox with the food.

“Oh, you light the fire in there!”

Please note: the space  you can see between the archways was later sealed up with cut fire bricks cemented in with mortar..

Wednesday, 10 April 2013

Innocence – – a poem inspired by a photo.





        

 INNOCENCE

Well you can always tell it by the joy upon her face;
That strife or pain or consequence has not yet meant disgrace;
That there is joy and happiness for taking without cost
before that simple beauty of her childhood’s ever lost

How sad that she must face the truth – the ugly world’s mistakes;
How sad that she must change and lose that innocence God makes;
For there in front of everyone for all of us to see:
That innocence of childhood just the way it’s meant to be.


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